before spm=after pmr???

like the title of my post,before spm=after pmr??guess you are curious of what i'm talking about right??haha..well..after pmr,the form 3's ginas are surely ending up their time in playing in school,by obeying or even disobeying the school rules..haha..

uno card,poker,handphones,psp,chess set..anything will do..well well,we are going to have spm in around a month???time does not matters when it comes to play and slack..haha..my class is having poker everyday..lol..even mahjong and poker hand made from paper!!!!haha..hiong leh???so many gamblers in my class..

almost everyone of us aren't studying for spm but enjoying and relaxing ourselves like those finished pmr students..haha..poker cards,uno cards,chess set(around the whole year),handphones and even psp!!!ya you did not see wrong,its PSP!!!lol..other class has iphones too..

if one day,there's a spotchek,i wonder are there enough hands to hold the confiscated things..haha..i even wonder will they have the skill to confiscated even a single piece of thing..haha..i'm a prefect too,but this are the doubt me and my friends always wondering..lol

也许

也许我不懂得爱

也许我的举止会令你受到伤害

也许我重来都未成熟过

也许我一直都是个小孩

也许我的执著令我想不开，忘不了，放不下

也许执著是件不好的事

也许这一切的一切都只是谎言

也许这一切的一切都是假象

也许我不会爱也许我真的错了 

也许我自负了 也许我真的真的失败了

也许面对是痛苦的 也许这一切都只是考验

也许我们不该分离 也许我们不该开始 

也许我只是想想而已，说说而已

也许失去了都没关系 也许可以重来

也许这只是也许

也许。。。。

也许。。。。

迷失方向

考完试的同伴们，都尽情的玩，有些也很努力的继续为大考暗拼。。。

考完试的我却像在大海中的船只，人有海浪带着飘，毫无方向的一直往前飘。。。

究竟，我该往哪儿前进呢？是否需要停下脚步，重新振作，在继续冲？？束手无策的我，每天都浑水摸鱼地过着日子。。没有目标的日子，是否这么的快乐？一点也不！！！

好像回到冲前的冲前，没有顾虑，没有烦恼，悠闲自在，轻松快乐的过日子，生活也比较开朗些。。也许时间长乐，人也变了，烦恼也多了，问题也多了，生活节奏也间接的加速了。。。

真的好想好向有人可以陪我，陪我做轻松的事，快乐的事，悠闲自在的事，只可惜，要这一切的到来，只可凭空想象，往往都不可能实现。。哎。。生活就是如此的反复无常。。

剩下近一个月，我却无法专心，踏稳脚步，安静的努力。。。。。。

after a long time

after kadet polis agm,i didn't jog for a long time,so today went to youth park to prepare ourself for the city run coming on 17th of october..

i planned to run 3 big and 3 small rounds in the botanical garden,but after the 3rd big round,i'm flatten,exhausted,tired and most importantly LAZY!!!!!!gossh..how am i gonna finish city run?lol

then,walk the way back to youth park,on the half way,reach moon gate and decided to hike..WTF???!!!exhausted liao still hike?i must be nuts that time..whatever,we hike with our will,its tough..oh ya,it is tough..my muscles are aching along the way..but soon,reached the top..

after some beverage break,went down to youth park..and crapping with khai wei,yu yang and kang qi all the way down..thats what we do today..lol..seems boring huh?we enjoyed ourselves..by going there again reminds me the pre-camp of kadet polis..that time was only one word to describe syok..haha..

in the pre-camp,we form 4's carry 5  litres of water to the top of the hill and did not stop or said tired,today i got a total different feeling..we were up there by empty hands but we felt very tough and nearly gave up though we didn't XD 

time flies,i'm old and rusted..needa train more..

first time to neway

yesterday went to neway to celebrate khai wei's birthday...

i enjoyed myself there with the the birthday boy (khai wei),his sis (yiwen),chea tze,chea yee,kai feng,zhe yi,seong sun,ken,wen zhuo and kang qi...i had eaten most of the food since nobody wants to eat them XD i'm so fat now T.T thanks to you all aduhai..

then the guys went home one by one since 6pm..i alone walk with the brother and the sister..went in many shops and explore almost every part of it..their expenditure was @#&^%$! no point,they are rich haha

went out from 3 and reach home at 10..woah..i'm so naughty..lol talk crap a lot with khai wei,and he was so perverted omg!!!maybe mix me too much>?i'm so bad...T.T

final exams over

yesh!!!!!finally,my trials are over...woohoo!!!!happy me!!!lol

now i'm addicted to the anime gundam 00...holy..its fascinating..thanks to that lim yee heng..haha

he is the one that lend me to copy anime...still got loads of anime in the desktop..lazy to transfer..lol

i did very badly in my biology this time..hope it won't be very low,at least meets my targets will do.

haha..gundam00 here i come..

signing off..

If and only IF i had a choice

if i had a choice i will choose my own path

if i had a choice i will do what is best to please everybody

if i had the strength i will go against the mighty ones

if i had the courage i will be overthrowing every obstacles

if i had a choice i would want to be best of the best so that everybody will be satisfy

if i had the power to turn around the world i will turn it 

if i had a chance to step back to the past i will

if i can stop the time and manage everything again i will

if i am that brave i hope to be disappear from this dimension

yes i am selfish and timid thats what you can conclude 

i am scare of everything which makes me a failure in every outcomes

seeing her down makes me sad i am too a human being with a soft heart

gAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhHHHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

just hope to get an terrible bang on the head and bid farewell to all the memories

LIFE WAS BETTER THAN IT IS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i had a choice.....................................................