what the heck is happening to me??

while today was the exciting day..
as i luckily and am kongly gt 2 chairman in today..
but now..
i felt like it was empty..
and started to feeling that i'm entering into a whole new world where i'm alone and struggling..
the happiness or whatever excitement that i assume today would have were all gone..
nothing left for me at all..
damn!!!
now emoing again..why do i keep on emoing??
i know all of you might laugh or whatever..
i don't mind nor even i care...
but this hurts my dear a lot..
i could feel the hurts that i cause to hurt her..
i'm sorry my beloved..
i don't meant to harm you..