It's MY liFE

Wo Bu Hui Rang Ni Shi Wang (I Can't Let You Be Disappointed)

2012-01-11T15:26:00.001+08:00

i listened to 謝和弦 this few days and i found that this song can be used to be a self motivating song..hmm..i dont know whether anybody agrees with this but one thing for sure i dont wanna let anyone that have hopes upon me to be disappointed.

either to your love,your parents,friends and teachers??in whatever way,we have to look forward and move forward..let bypass be bypass,get a new life and work all the way to a better life ha.

upper 6 life is stressful,but no matter how stress it is,im sure there are more stressful life ahead of me or perhaps someone else are having more stress?who knows?the world is round lol random...

finally,to christopher kok foo loon(no idea whether the name is wrong or not) although i am not familiar with you i know who you are...well,what can i say more?RIP man!!
life is short,cherish every moments with everyone while you still have them with you

2012

2012-01-01T13:37:00.002+08:00

Happy 2012!!well,is it really we are one step reaching DOOM??well,even it is just make sure we cherish everything in our life and live everyday like the last day..hmm..i wonder will i be able to do that??ha

new year comes with a new wish and new aims so do i..just hoped i wont slack anymore and concentrate on my studies,scoring 4 flats in stpm haha..building up my body??increase my stamina to another level..haha..well,im lazy to exercise and it is bad as i am growing fat again haha..hope to slim down hmmm..

looks like slimming down is the problem??so many people that i knew went gym occassionally while im slacking at home..haha..well,i aint that rich so let it be la..haha..just hope all well ends well

happy 2012..looking forward to happy chinese new year haha

enjoy life!!

2011-12-22T01:53:00.002+08:00

well,shouldn't we enjoy our life without listening to others being sarcarstic to you??in someways i found that people are easily affected by words..hmm..is it just me noticing this or you too??

actions from us may cause pains and relieve to the ones around you,it depends on how the situation was i think.for me,i think that i am absolutely not gonna change my way of life because of other people's words??there's no point to live on if we keep changing ourself to suite them.i mean if we were to enjoy ourselves to the max,why not we continue our doings in a simpler and more relaxing way??why do we have to care about views from others??

well,of course what i am refering meant no harm to anybody i suppose,not asking you to do some rubbish acts that will get yourself killed or injured someone...simple as i say,im still the old me,and will remain being the old me,ideas of changing oneself should be in a good manner or perhaps helping one to be more positive?ha
for me,myself all i do is to make sure i enjoy in everything,every process,every event and all,i dont care what results will i end up with as long as i enjoyed the whole thing.shouldn't life be that simple??

if you got something to say,you can hit it hard on my face.i dont mind,i can accept any harsh thing,and let me do the conclusion myself in whether im correct or wrong??perhaps explanation made by one will satisfy others in another way round?hmmm....who knows??its just another random post from me hiak hiak hiak..sorry for wasting your precious time :)

tiring week

2011-12-18T12:28:00.002+08:00

most tiring week within this year oh god..
camped for one whole week argghh...so tiring..
went to montessori nursery centre for a camp as oc and group leader..
12-13 and 15-16 of december..playing and learning with kids for the whole week.
those little devils holy cow..they are much more updated then me..almost everyone of them are kpop fan
seriously kids these days aren't the same as us,thinking of what we have back then just makes me feel we are so outdated haha..
on the first day of the camp arrival and i saw at least 5 nintendo ds and some other cool and advance gadgets include psp hehe
what do we play when we are kids?tetris and the most gameboy colour and advance??
they are playing things advance then us oh yeah damn right!!

while we are watching tom and jerry,they are watching ben10 and more lol
i learnt a lot through out this camp.i had a lot of fun too!!
those stuff which i did not learn in kadet i learn throughout this camp hehe...
well of course learning is happening everyday everywhere and does not stops till we die..
those little devils are so naughty but of course they are cute..
and entertained us a lot..somehow i think its something like parenting course for us?haha?too early for that
nice experience for me and hope to have another chance to go again..
some of those kids even asked us to go back camp with them next year..
next year i'll be having stpm..hmmm..lets see until then..

i must admit im old enough lol...a 15 minutes sleep at thursday is not enough..
and until now im still so tired and it seems that i cant gain enough rest.
worst come to worst im sick?lol.nah no big deal its worth to having those times with kids when im healthy haha..i have no idea what im talking now still blurring all right..can you believe it while typing this post,im actually watching tom and jerry haha..memories fuh..

lonely

2011-11-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

从高处望下，看着来来往往的车辆，微风迎面而来，才发现一个人的孤独与寂寞是非笔墨所能形容的。。

hi guys

2011-10-29T16:10:00.002+08:00

hey boys and girls..whats cooking in da house???!!this blog has been dead since i went for national camp..lol...well ya,you guys can ignore the previous post..i got to go since this is the final year hehe..it was full of enjoyment..i enjoyed myself very much during the 2 weeks camp and gain new friends and knowledge hehe...after coming back from the camp,i noticed that nasi lemak 2.0 was unavailable in cinemas anymore HOW DOWN!!!but i manage to watch it in youtube..it truely reflects things happening around us in our daily life if you still have any conscience.haha..dont be mad..

after attending this camp,with so many races in kontinjen pulau pinang..i truely understand the true meaning of 1 malaysia..haha..its a good idea where a country does not have racism or sexism..we enjoyed ourself thou our mother tongue was different..each of us learned languages from different races..as for chinese,we learned some tamil lol..others learned chinese from us..we fully cooperate with another without a problem..unlike other states where non-muslims hardly to be found..I LOVE PENANG woohoo..we rock!!

we did not own those major events like other states..
prizes that kontinjen pulau pinang earned:
for males

1. acara menembak secara berpasukan tempat ketiga

2. pertandingan kawad kaki secara berpasukan tempat pertama (was lead by me lolx)

3. pertandingan kawad kaki secara individu tempat pertama (its me yahoo)
for females

1. acara menembak secara berpasukan tempat ketiga

2. jalan lasak tempat ketiga

3. pertandingan kawad kaki secara berpasukan tempat kedua (was lead by jit sin's sarjan pang tze san)

thou we won the least but we are happy with all the resutls..we enjoyed ourselves there,we have high eq in everyone of us..no blaming each others for the loss..thats what i thought lol..

无奈

2011-09-20T16:24:00.002+08:00

在第一天知晓有National Camp这东西时，想想应该是Form2 的时候吧。。
自从那天，我就有着要参与的希望，谁知中五毕业了，还是没有机会参加。。
到了今年，中六了，也得知今年将有National Camp就满怀希望等它到来，结果，我等到了！！但又有何用呢？？
主办当局把它定在2nd of October也就是年终考试的第一个星期，当然，可想而知，机会就如此的断送了，我真得很想参加，却一直与我擦肩而过，好无奈!!

父母不准许我和弟弟去，原因就是因为考试，也许，在家长眼里，人身经验是不重要的，最重要的就是考取好成绩，没法，唯有准命，乖乖的考试吧！！错过了这次的National Camp,觉得有点可惜，也许，这是我的不幸。。人生正无奈，哈哈。。再见了National Camp.希望，我不会常常想着它吧。。反正，这也是我的最后一次，再怎么说都好，我还是得当个乖孩子到学校考试。。

别再想了，想了又没得去，只会越想越伤。。
所罗门王说：虚空的虚空虚空的虚空凡事都是虚空。太阳底下无新鲜事，一切都是捕风，一切都是捉影。

Super Junior 슈퍼주니어_Mr.Simple_MUSICVIDEO

2011-08-14T18:24:00.000+08:00

憔悴的她

2011-07-30T18:11:00.003+08:00

她。。憔悴了许多。。

我心里也不怎么好受。。

几个月不见，她的变化却如此的大。。

无意间发现她的照片，显然与以前有很大的不一样。。

照片里的她，虽然在笑着，但通过她的眼神，她不怎么高兴。。

心事重重似的，我该如何？

从她的眼神，我看见了他对我的思念，对我的想念。。

我不想看见那副因思念而不怎么开心的脸孔。。

愿她开心每一天，我就满足了=）

朋友？

2011-07-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

自从我们都中五毕业以后，有好多事情都已在我们的掌控以外了，就如身边和你一起并肩作战的朋友吧，大家都为自己的兴趣和理想拼了，各自道不同的地方去完成自己的心愿，许多都到了外州深造，见面的次数和机会，都完蛋了，减少了，朋友与朋友之间的距离，也增加啦，在那遥远的距离，我们是否有像向对方的生活和状况呢？？我想应该很少吧。。

假如，你身边有一位常常都给予你力量，时常提醒你的失误，在你快乐与不快乐时，他都站在你这里，我想，你应该感到幸运和骄傲因为有这么一位好的朋友，好朋友的定义是什么？对我而言，在你最需要人的帮助时，好朋友就是站在那里愿意地把手借你的人，在你最需要发泄的时候，他就是愿意把自己当沙包或牺牲自己的细胞听你发牢骚，在你崩溃与无助时，他就会陪你读过那段时期，不管快乐，悲哀，他都会陪你一起哭一起笑，这样应该就够了吧，然而，这类的朋友，就算我们遇到了，我们会珍惜吗？？有时还觉得他们很烦，什么都插手干涉你的生活。。

以前和我一起西哈玩乐的朋友，如今都到别处去读书了，那些西哈的日子，的确很怀念，也许许多人都不愿回到过去痛苦的日子，但，我却希望，回到过需那些痛苦的日子，和朋友一起闹，一起down,一起shoot的时刻，也是一种幸福，虽然现在少了这些乐趣，但仍然必须往前看，朝着目标行使，虽然，有许多聚会我都错过了，但是，真挚的友谊绝对不会因为没去聚会而被摧毁的。。

是我变了吗？还是朋友们个个都变了？还是全都变了？？在不同环境下过的生活，我们就会也因此而改变自己以适应环境，生于淮南则为橘，剩余淮南则为枳（不知是否有错，很久没读华文了）也许就在不同的成长和生活环境下，我们都觉得身变的朋友，就连与你最要好的那位都变得与你陌生，我们之间从零距离，逐渐的开始有了距离，距离慢慢，满满的增加，直到路过都像陌生人似的，这是多么悲哀的啊？？

人生又能几时是随行所遇的呢？这一切都是在操纵外，非我们所能控制的，唯一能做的，就是常常和朋友聚在一起，或关心对方的境况也是不错嘛，如果，我们可以常常约出来，大家聚在一起，十多么温馨和有意义的啊。。哈哈。。

feeling ill now

2011-06-19T17:55:00.001+08:00

i feel so ill now.why?perhaps tired?stress?no doubt.i cant recognize myself clearly anymore.everything seems to be so blur.everything around me include you thou you're not around.i wonder when will you see this??hmmm..

i've grown weaker day by day.weak in the mentality perhaps physically too.no matter how ill i am,i will still stand and walk.my aim is vanishing.is there someone or something to let me held on and tell me which way should i stick on till the end???

anyways,hope that i will succeed in finding my own path without any doubt..where's that confidence of mine had gone to?where did my arrogant gone to??i've lost my pride and my faith.i doubt myself.

责任感？？！！

2011-06-04T13:58:00.002+08:00

什么是责任感？？你有吗？？做事半途而废，应为某种因素而想不开，闹情绪不顾其他人的看法和心情，决定退出一切有关事务。一起当伙伴如此的久，再夺南奥野熬过了，就连这最后一次局在一起搞活动就决定放弃一切，离开队友吗？几岁了，还发什么小孩子脾气？对你们彻底失望。。。什么是团结？什么是纪律？冲你们身上，我一点也察觉不到。我承认，我也没有这些条件，但至少，我会随机应变，最后也把事情成功完成。这也只是侥幸而已。。

别把一切都怪罪于他人身上，是否想过，在你怪人的时候，他也会在那儿同样的怪你。。只有重复反省，想象自己的错误在哪里，才会有所进步。以理由来逃避一切问题非君子所为。莫非你非君子？这就得怪自己对你的期望太高了。把你想得太完美，使我的疏忽。没仔细观察而下了某种定论，只可说，我也不怎么好到哪里。haih..你们在我心里的影响，已经归零。。我不会在怪你们，毕竟因为我的疏忽和大意，才会导致如今的你。对这件事，我对你说声对不起。我不求你的原谅，因为你没资格。

做是有始有终是我们一贯的作风，没想到，落到你手中，如此优良的传统，却被拟一一毁掉。。建立形象？谈何容易？你说就可做？我呸！以你的态度，难成大事，舍己为人这个礼让精神，在你们身上，不可能被发觉或被发现，因为你们没有！！一心一意？？有吗？不见得。我在质疑，是否我没进好自己的本分？应该就只有这个理由而已。一切就顺其自然吧，他日如何被外人看待，我已无法在维护和保护。祝你们好运吧！！一切都以太迟了，不必对自己的错误负起任何责任，因为你们根本没有这门学问。

过度关心=鸡婆？？？

2011-05-31T20:00:00.003+08:00

在生活里，是否有朋友真的付出真心去关心某些人，或许问候，安慰，慰问一些面对困难的朋友呢？身为人的我们，有着非一般的头脑，比一般生物高出X倍的智慧，也无形间使我们变得十分复杂。也许在着社会里，我们所能给的关心就只有一般普通的关心而已吧！急于过渡的关心，就会令人觉得很厌恶，也被大家名为鸡婆。。哈哈。。说得没错吧？？

也许这种现象大多只发生在男女关系身上吧，如果女生太铭感，就会多情的一位那男的想要追他或之类的。。这是普通会发生的某种状况，一些更可怕的，就如，臭骂那男的一吨，并说他是鸡婆。。和他断绝关系，也不和他来往，省直绝交。。何必呢？？这只是一些例子而已啦。真实度未经扩本人亲身研究。。哈哈。。假如真的研究也未免太无聊了吧？？倒不如花些时间去写多几篇打发时间算了。哈哈

没关系，假如你被视为鸡婆的那一群，原因就只是过渡关心，我了解你的心情，因为，我也是一个。。哈哈。。没办法，谁叫我就是如此自讨苦吃？？爱管闲事，爱过渡关心朋友呢？？哈哈有时候甚至还会因朋友有烦恼无法解决而为他一起down呢。我的境况可能没有如此严重吧？？真不了解自己为何就是那么的爱知道朋友的事，八卦？呵呵可能吧。吃饱没事做？也许吧。

也许事实上，表面上看起来没什么。但人的内心始终都会自然而然的掩护自己，不愿与外界有所接触。一个人承受一切，一个人扛着一切，一个人担着一切，这些我都尝试过，也许辛苦，但值得！！这是让你成长最快的道路，千万别放弃它，他将会是你以后的财产。但成功走过这段路的人又有几个呢？我并不是其中一个，将来还有许多类似的路要走。。希望倒是放弃的不会是我。。

如果，你需要人解闷活和你聊天，甚至于你分享心事，你可以找我，如果我能做到的，我会尽量帮你。哈哈。。但我不会说话，只会气你，所以，如果你能顶得住旧放马过来咯。。我可以当你得听者。。帮朋友这样的忙，我向大家都可以做得到吧。。朋友就是在最需要你的时候扶你一把，站在你这里为你着想啊！！不然做朋友就没了他原有的意义和用以了。哈哈。

holidays yay??

2011-05-27T19:42:00.003+08:00

holiday is here and should i be happy about it?lol.those who just finish having exams sure do.but for me,haha.have to study and finish those homeworks.lmao.first 3 weeks in lower 6.started to feel stress and pressure already,worry of not catching up in class.damn.its really tough.oh my.

maths,chemistry,physics,PA and MUET.seriously its tough.yet i'm not having any tuition except chem and muet.ho sei.i'm so yao yeng.most of my friends are having tuition for every subject i think.so,those who are not doing stpm.dont say you are having serious problem in studies.lol.yours aint the hardest so is mine.hope i can cope well and do well.gotta revise everything taught by teachers and finish up those homeworks.lmao.tonnes of homeworks waiting me,especially maths and chem(tuition homework delayed since the first time of tuition.LOL)

happy holidays to those who are having holidays.aha.good luck in those who are still sitting for exams especially in college ones.hope those went for jpa,matrics and other better offer will strike with colorful results.all of us work hard!!go for what we want.yeah,thats it.

appealing for jpa?

2011-05-15T21:34:00.001+08:00

http://www.mca.org.my/cn/files/2010/10/2011%E5%B9%B4JPA%E6%B5%B7%E5%A4%96%E5%A5%96%E5%AD%A6%E9%87%91%E4%B8%8A%E8%AF%89%E8%A1%A8%E6%A0%BC.pdf
those who wanted to appeal for jpa just go here :) do it ASAP.

cheers.

congrats

2011-05-11T18:40:00.002+08:00

after all those weeks,after losing so much sweat.doing sunbath with clothes on.BBQ all of your skin.turning from fair white to charcoal black.do you think its worth to get 5 champions for all these hard work?CONGRATS to clhs cadet police for gaining the champion in the state competition today.you all did a nice job!!all of your hard work paid off.thats the reward for all of your hardwork.be proud of it!!

to those who fell sick.recover soon.its time to switch course.focus on your studies now.work hard and strike good results to be perfect but not neglecting them o.0
to one of my f2 junior who admitted hospital due to denggi,get well soon.dont worry.we managed to work it out with joshua(our super sub which learn everything and trained under half an hour).thou there are still some mistakes.but its better on field.well done!!

i seriously admire jit sin's cadets for their discipline.they are so well disciplined.self punished for doing wrong.nice.thats what a cadet should be.i'm a little bit disappointed with their performance??(am i nuts?felt disappointed to rival's performance.lol.)i wanted to see their slow marching so badly.its so good.strongest i shall say.better than us alot.still today was a let down.thought i could have a good view and watch it again.but no.sigh.

to my cadets,you all won not because of you all have the skill.but because of other's imperfection.dont be too proud of yourselves.you are still not good enough to claim the best of the best.improvements must be made.that will have to wait till after exams that is.meanwhile,good luck to all of you in your exams.BEST OF LUCK!!once again,CONGRATS!!

first week in school

2011-05-10T18:30:00.003+08:00

after few months of work and slacking,i am back to school now.after not getting any offers and shortlisted in many things that i applied.i'm gonna go for the toughest road which is STPM.rumors says its tough and fearful?i have no choice but to risk everything then.motivate myself to work hard then.there aint any option as i can see.dang.

well,lets fight for it then.hope everything goes well and ends well.back to topic.first day to school.i'm late.lmao.i did not go back to see the notice where it actually stated school starts at 8.i went around 830.lol.after the first day,here comes 2nd day.all boring as usual.introduction to school.to chung ling old boys.its boring but abit useful thou.

2nd day in school which is today.lol.done nothing.was excited of going msspp again on this thurs.but there's bad news when i got home.the teacher advisor informed us that we cant go to msspp because it stated that there is only 2 form 6 are allowed to play in a team.lmao.lower 6 are still form 6 in some sense.so,thats it.no more ponteng on thurs.emo die!!well,at least i still got to ponteng tomorrow.haha its cadet's big day.nice man.hopefully all went well and they overcome every team and be the defending champion and defend the title.GOOD LUCK.

will know my class tomorrow.good to know then.at least i got a place to study.hope i wont slack.still waiting for jpa.fingers crossed.hope i get it.

clhs cadet police

2011-05-10T17:46:00.002+08:00

there's nothing much to post on this.tomorrow will be the state level marching competition 2011.we cadet police of chung ling high school has succeeded in advancing to state level after the first stop at SMK Air Itam.
they have done a splendid job in SMK AIR ITAM still there is much more improvement to do.thats what i'm concerned the most.i doubt they have the power,the ability to fight jit sin's cadets??

well,i must be worrying too much.the marching site.is the site that i fear the most?erm.many things happened in the past.tears,blood,sweat are all on the land.an unusual pressure is all over me thou i am not in the competition.damn.whats wrong with me?lol
no matter what.i should stay and keep believing that they will strike and win.thats what i hope.and may it happen!!

go for what we've wanted the most.thats what we have and need to fight for.time to prove that you are the best.be the best.do the best.no pressure.just go for what you want.you will get it.believe yourself.you can win!!all the best tomorrow.GOOD LUCK!!i will be there to watch.ONCE CADET FOREVER CADET

latest info on JPA?

2011-05-05T21:42:00.002+08:00

great efficiency showed by them.lol.if you view my previous post,you could see that the results will be announced tomorrow.now,latest news.

go here to view it yourself :P
http://esilav2.jpa.gov.my/esila_new/index.php

this is what they say.if you dont believe,you can try the above link and look it with your own eyes.twice.lol.

05-05-2011 - KEPUTUSAN PERMOHONAN PROGRAM IJAZAH LUAR NEGARA (PILN) 2011
Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam masih memproses permohonan PILN 2011. Keputusan permohonan boleh disemak pada 9 Mei 2011 mulai Jam 5 petang.

anyway,good luck.fingers crossed.

JPA results

2011-04-30T00:39:00.001+08:00

29-04-2011 - KEPUTUSAN PERMOHONAN PROGRAM IJAZAH LUAR NEGARA (PILN) 2011
Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam masih memproses permohonan PILN 2011. Keputusan permohonan dijangka akan dikeluarkan pada 6 Mei 2011.

this is the latest news that i've found out so far on jpa's website.be patient to those who are waiting.GOOD LUCK :)

prefects footdrill competition 2011

2011-04-24T19:34:00.002+08:00

23/4/2011 which is yesterday.LOL.was the prefects foot drill competition.
woke up early in the morning and followed my brother to school.
well,let me cut all the crap.describing everything happened in that day kinda makes whole post boring and im tired and sleepy.lack of sleep.woke up on 5am?and slept on 1am.

ok,cut the crap.first,congrats to CLHS prefects for getting 1st,3rd and 5th place in the basic competition and manage to defend the overall champion title and keep that cup.it was our only aim and you guys did well in defending it.losing away the overall champion title for formation is nothing to blamed as your performance were kinda let down,at least you guys won the 2nd place.congrats.

congrats other school such as Sacred Heart,Union,Heng EE,CDK,PCGHS for striking prizes in the competition,those schools that get prize but were not listed im so sorry for my bad memory,please forgive me.hehe.to be frank,CLHS got the prize with poor luck and just a little bit of skill or should i convert them into percentage?75% luck and 25% skill?or lets make it to a 60% of luck and 40% of skill then.

well,maybe all of you who reading this will think that im fake.but im not gonna care what do you think anyway,as listed this blog is "IT'S MY LIFE".the 5th place in basic for clhs team C,i hereby salute you and congrats you sincerely you did your best and fought hard against all odds.2 hours training in PCGHS's ground right before the competition did show good results,and you did not give up yourself and believed the whole team C.TEAM C is a MIRACLE i shall say as you guys dont even think that you will get any prize,but who knows,maybe the judge noticed your efforts and hard work?you guys performed well on the field.

TEAM A great jobs you guys,no doubt,you guys were hoping to get a higher place and a better acknowledgement.but its good enough,nice experience i should say eh...TEAM B,i would call it a PURE LUCK team.making mistakes right in front of the main judge and marching out the field,giving wrong commands and yet you still did get labeled as champion.when i saw you guys on the field i just feel that something's wrong.and there it happened.MISTAKES.but the judges still gave you the champion.i have nothing to say for that.LOL.

now,formation team.when you guys went into the field,i was surprise and thought you guys could own the whole thing.that was my thought until the first kiri belok of cepat jalan.DOWNFALL.several obvious mistakes which is a let down.performance were bad.you guys did not take it seriously,well not all.just some of you?!i cant see the form,the power,the arrogant from you guys showing that you wanted to own the whole thing.no,i did not saw that.if this year's performance were to compared with last year's i will be giving only 30 out of 100.

some of you might think that getting prize is the biggest achievement.to me,thats so damn wrong.ever thought of the mistakes you've been doing?any corrections made?no,nobody thought of that,all of your aims are only to get some prize and be proud of the prize you get.if this is the way,YOU DOESN'T HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO BE A CHAMPION.

form 6 intake

2011-04-19T14:55:00.003+08:00

well,just FYI.this is what i found while surfing and searching and slacking.LOL.
here goes the info that i searched through the web.this is just for those who are going back to form 6.lol.not sure what it meant but its what i've found.haha.

Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa tawaran kemasukan dan surat tawaran ke Tingkatan Enam Bawah boleh dicetak secara on-line mulai 2 Mei 2011 (Isnin) melalui alamat laman web http://www.emoe.gov.my dan calon juga bloeh menyemak keputusan tawaran melalui perkhidmatan Sistem Pesanan Ringkas (SMS) dengan menaip seperti berikut : "T.6Nombor Kad Pengenalan" atau "T.6Angka Giliran" dan hantar ke talian 15888.

2. Sehubungan dengan itu, pelajar yang berjaya diminta melaporkan diri mulai 9 Mei 2011 (Isnin) di sekolah yang ditawarkan.

hhhmmm??

2011-04-19T14:17:00.004+08:00

anybody knows the feel of not being trusted?or somehow doesn't feel getting trust and believe from friends or family members?sometimes i could not feel it,or i doesn't have that for a long time until i realize it now?!lol

believe in yourself when you doing something,no matter in what way,you will succeed.thats what my dad told us during last weekends.lol.i did not voice my opinion just in case it would worsen the situation as im a hot head and could not control my emotion when i release it out,thus dont you dare to mess with me when im in a so not ok mood or else you will get screwed badly.haha.

i was thinking,even if we do believe in ourself and have faith in doing everything.what if there is no one to support you from the point of your view?!especially when there is no one to help you when you are fall down terribly?what can we do about that?standing up your own would be necessary and how can we stand without support or believe?zzz..im nuts..lol.main point:not feeling being trusted by parents in making own decision or having own way of life.

parents are the one who brought us to this world,we cannot deny them nor disobeying them.that will make us impolite and being labeled as betrayal/treacherous son.lol.for this,i have to do things in my parents way but not my own way,do i have any other choices?better than what i have now?no,i dont think so.sometimes,parents are unpredictable so do we??thats undeniable!!but so far,how many of us are being set and controlled to walk and move like what as being told by them?i dare say 75% of us are having this way of life.why should we need a brain?ZOMG!

cant believe that i'm talking shitloads of crap.haha.well,just let it be.dont mind me.ignore and forgive me for my misbehave to everyone of you.LOL

where should i go?

2011-04-14T22:33:00.002+08:00

hey folks,finally,i decided not to attend UPNM's interview anymore..well,firstly,i wear specs and my eye power is too deep not qualify enough to be a cadet i suppose..secondly,i dont think of serving in military after graduating lol not that i hate military just i have no interest in it thou the offer is quite good if we manage to get it.that is if we get to study as a cadet in UPNM,then we will be paid to study and have allowance from the government.

the next question pop up on my mind now is which path should i go.lol.physics to be an engineer in the future or physics related job??or go for biology to be a psychiatrist or biology related field...lmao..there aren't any clear path for me..zzz..no idea where should i be heading..i think those who are reading this are laughing or giggling for i dont have my own way?my own thoughts?hmmm...

most of my friends that i knew has a perfect mindset and know clearly which path to walk.what to do.looked and planned for their future.hmmm.but not me.damn it!!some of them jumped ship from science stream to art stream,thats a tough choice either.but alas they manage to do it and did the switch,going on there path.why me?am i the only one who is still wondering around?lost his own path?dont know where to go?hmmm..

UPNM

2011-04-12T18:40:00.003+08:00

UPNM,anybody whom i know applied for it and is being called for interview?lol.FYI,UPNM stands for Universiti Pertahanan Nasional Malaysia.
well,i am being called for intreview but am not sure whether to go or not lol
i am going for JPA's interview tomorrow,if i go both..that means my chances in getting jpa will be lower as getting into UPNM is a higher success rate for my previous experience in Police Cadets.

interview will start on this friday,15th of april and ends at 23rd of april.lol.im gonna be alone with other competitors in KL for a whole week for the interviews,physical test,speech,leaderships etc.thats hell lot of things lol.
leaving home to go for interview.who else agrees?i dont mind going there as i can make new malay friends,and get brain washed?ha its ok thou

gotta get myself ready in both physical and mental if im going for it.physical test.finish 3.2km run in 18 minutes.imagine how tough is that for me who stopped to run or even jog for half a year.im a goner.i dont have any NS experience too.this is about military which means we need to know more of politics,wars?!lol i dont have any knowledge in all these issues lol.

advices please?

JPA's interview

2011-04-08T17:07:00.001+08:00

well,its the hot topic for SPM 2010's candidates today..almost everyone will be asking each other did she/he get selected for the interview?hehe

to be honest,i dont think i might get it with my poor results..but i was selected to go for the interview..lol..im so damn lucky..any advise?!
heard that those interviewers and the questions being asked are super hard and kuai lan lol no idea about that.im just there to meet people and take some experience with other pros haha

good luck and congrats to those who got it.
by the way,can i know who get selected for the interview on next wed (13th of april) 345pm?
because thats the time im being called for interview lol

im back again?!

2011-04-07T17:45:00.002+08:00

hey folks,this blog has been dead for a long long time.half a year at least?!
its allright now,i will try to update it to make it alive abit haha
wonder how many people viewed when it had been dead?hhhmmmm....
even the songs are so long and old?ha.

where i've hide myself?hhmm..
well,nothing much happened..took an unexpected results for SPM lol
what did i score?i score straights!!!lol
but straight A's is just a name,it ain't cool as it seems thou not much people can score straight..
im so kiam pa XD
scoring 5A- 3A and 2A+..get a 4b for 1119 english..LOL
with this kind of results there's nothing much that i can apply for or even get them..just hope lucks come to me and let me hit the jackpot :D

will be stop working after end of this month.
where will i go?its still a question and my future is thick covered..cant see it clearly through..
so lets make up our mind..hmmm..matriculation or F6..thats all i have..haha..
so thats the deal.STPM beware of me.here i come to pawn you down..
felt abit regret for getting such results..why?
haha..playing during and before include after SPM..damn..serves me right..
should have studied at least a little bit more and harder?perhaps that would change a bit.

its all over now.its a new world.brand new start for me.
not just me,its everybody..haha..the real life starts now..hhmmmm...
let by past be by past,look forward and move forward,thats the only way to survive and work on it....wish me luck then!!
meet you guys in f6..we will own again in F6..haha..there wont be so much competitors i think..hehe

signing off

choices to make

2011-03-13T15:31:00.002+08:00

so much choices to be done nowadays,hard choices that will affect our life.
therefore,the best choice must be made regarding to each possible outcomes..for those who already done and started in college i hereby congratulate you.at least you didn't have to struggle that much??lol.

STPM(clhs) and diploma(nanyang poly),these 2 are my current choice.anyone have any better ideas?lol.college is a no no for me,not gonna waste my talents in there thou i dont have any :)
many people including seniors and teachers are stopping most of us to go for STPM lol the reasons are not worth wasting your 2 years time in there and the system is not that good.

this further studies thingy is making my head to blow..why aren't there any choices that look simple and much more easier to get what we want?lol.thats miracle if there is always an easy one :(
good luck to myself i think.hope i get to do the right thing when the time comes :)

P/S i love you <3

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

2011-02-24T15:06:00.000+08:00

just for you :)

to all 2010 F5 students

2011-02-22T18:48:00.002+08:00

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=%2F2011%2F2%2F21%2Fsarawak%2F8105087&sec=sarawak
see para 12th.
credits to lim yee heng ^^

those who applied matrikulasi,please go to the following website to refill all the lost info lols.
http://apps.moe.gov.my/permohonan_matrikulasi/semakan/login_kemaskini.cfm
credits to lim yee heng too.^^

well,to all of those who are waiting SPM results,please refer to both link above.
the first one will be propably be the releasing date of our SPM results.ha
but its just a news,there is no formal confirmation or announcement on this yet.FYI.

the second link will be those who applied matrikulasi.
y'all need to refill the info inside.
government somehow lost our info??no idea.lols.
just refill then.
cheers.:)

signing off,
benny

happy chinese new year

2011-02-03T18:12:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all of you out there :)
HUAT AH!!!!HUAT AH!!!!!haha..i'm pretty sure that most of you are enjoying yourself at this moment,today's the first day of chinese new year,now i'm in the house sitting in front of the laptop and blog ROFL..

nothing special in this year's chinese new year i guess..i've already been through both sides of relatives and get "ang paos" from them as well..no more place to go :( if any of you wanna meet up or hang out just text me or facebook me i'm sure i can arrange that :)

stay home and play games will be the main event of this year's chinese new year..will be visiting rumah orang cacat??!!(is it said in this way?no idea :( lol) well,its just a place located at butterworth where those disabled people are suppose to be there?i have no idea about this,its my first time tomorrow :) looking forward to get there xD

thats all i guess,back to game then hahahaha
HUAT AH HUAT AH!!!!!!

what i do??

2011-01-20T15:15:00.002+08:00

first of all,HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone lol..i know its kinda late..but better be late than never show up right??haha..most of my friends seems to be in the college huh?INTI and DISTED hmmmm..these propably are both college which most of my friends went..hehe..all went to study and what about me???to urge your curiousity im telling you now..i went to help my dad in his new established factory..haha..im an obedient and good son right??haha..OMG!!!if someones actually agrees about that..haha..

i get bruises on my hand especially my fingers..i get scratches and cuts all around them..these happened when im cutting tray by using that dye cutter if i aint mistaken whats it called...LOL me..everyone's going college nowadays,who's gonna go F6 with me if not offered with JPA,IPTA,or matriculation?only a few will meet together in F6 huh..hope it wont be boring and still be able to have fun like previous year when school reopens..haha..

chinese new year will be arriving just a couple of weeks away huh..well boys and girls..any plans on CNY??i'm free and waiting for your invitation to your house to get some red packets..haha..hope i wont be bored during this year's CNY compared to previous..life seems to be getting better and better..hope all goes well and ends well

signing off :)

2011-01-02T13:44:00.000+08:00

don't know why everytime i listen to this song,it enters my soul XD

so,i decided to post it and share with all of you..haha..HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!!!

to those who went NS starting today,have a safe trip and have fun there...

to those who started working,good luck and take care,dont overdo..haha...HUAT AH!!!!!

to those who going college and started to study,good luck and all the best!!!CHIONG AH!!!!PIA AH!!!!

F4---Friends Forever

2010-12-27T20:53:00.004+08:00

from left jin yee,me,chuan yui,jian soong

that night,the four endao's went out..the driver is the one with the watch in the picture above and showing a hand to ask for his pay lol just kidding hahax..we went queensbay to hang out and spend some time shooting each other..lol..we enjoyed ourself,and watched just call me nobody that night..

the story was pointless...i mean absolutely TOTALLY POINTLESS though its funny...having fun just between the four of us..while filling our stomach at paddington pancake,many funny things happen lol we kept talking on finishing first and left the place..the last person had to pay all..this is where when jin yee spoke..lol he said "as soon as 3 of you walk away,im gonna jump down"then we started to laugh and i add on "we will be waiting for him in the car at the main entrance" i know its kinda lame XD

jin yee was always the steamest,he ordered a meal inside a pan lol...on the handle of the pan it says the handle was hot but he just read the front and did not read continuously..he was caution and afraid to touch the pan lol..c'mon its just the handle,not the whole pan..chuan yui and jian soong ordered the same meal,when it arrived chuan yui claimed that it was not his as the waiter served him first..in the end,seeing both plates are the same food he asked jian soong "you ordered the same dish with me?"zzz...it was jian soong ordered before chuan yui haha..

thats all,we hang out before chuan yui leaves malaysia to taiwan...haha...no fear,he will still be back,he just went there to reunion with his relatives..lol..the four of us was growing and knowing each other since primary school even kindergarden..kinda hard to believe it right??i know i know you are envy cause you don't have one..haha

cadet's farewell

2010-12-23T21:00:00.003+08:00

18th~~19th of december 2010. What happened?lol these two days were cadet's farewell and being a member of it,i'm proud to say i manage to stick with cadet to the end!!! thinking back when i was in form 1,24 cadet members joined and how many manage to stick with it until today?only 12..50% of them were dismissed by the bad behavior, inactiveness...i'm so proud to say that i've done it and i've survive 5 years of tough training and facing 5 years of the dry,hard,hot,coarse tar road in front of bengkel haha..

those moments were to cherish deep in our hearts,nobody may succeed in this but 12 of us did!!!and we are proud to shout WE ARE CHUNG LING CADET'S...no matter how tough the course is chosen or is set,we will walk by together no matter what!!!that farewell was not complete for absence of our vice chairman-ROY(went singapore) and head of logistics- TZE HUAI (went dubai) we had fun too without them lol the farewell ends with loads of karaoke's song..hehe..our singer TIAW WEN ZHUO sings throughout the night and day without 1 minute of sleep or rest..he went to his car practical in the following day..lol..see this!!!told ya how tough we are..lol

i will remember our happy and sad occasions in the life of a cadet..those sleeping together nights,playing together nights,chasing each other,scolding and shouting at each other,being super sarcastic at each other...this is what we have and we gained friendship of eternity,thats what we are made to be..

i will end this post with this..

FRIENDS FOREVER,FOREVER CADETS

had a great time

2010-12-16T08:22:00.002+08:00

last night,i went to cadet's pre-camp party and it is also the last day of the camp..we ate and enjoyed ourselves with the food specially prepared by the organizing committees, which are the going-to-be form 5's cadets..haha...went there earlier and helped to fried some nuggets..omg!!you know what?they wanted to finish frying the nuggets in a short time,so it ended up 5 nuggets fusing together to become a pile..and i started to be sarcastic by that time..i ask the Jun Ming(the person frying nuggets) can you be considerate for not show your big mouth by trying to show you can stuff 5 nuggets into your mouth in one time??lol..i know its pointless haha

after the eating session,went to light up the fire..the ajk's lighted the camp fire with mr.lye..the fire was warmth and blazing..it shows our cadet's spirit...it will never be iced..the heat was extremely warm and soon hot plus started to make us sweat..ok skip that part...next,watched our juniors to present their creative ideas and presentation..or most people called them sketch as we say presentation..haha..

their presentation was funny,we laughed so much that we hadn't since a long time ago..all of us was filled with laughter..super hillarious....damn!!it was pretty cool for them to think this in 3 days time and manage to carry it out so well and smoothly..in the meantime,i saw the future of cadets,there will be more hard paths and hard decision's to make..the path to victory is steep,it is not as easy as it seems...work hard all cadets!!!!

exhausted

2010-12-11T22:57:00.002+08:00

woah....just cant believe it,after the training,i started to feel my body aching..diam diam besi berkarat..thats what it means..haha..i'm rusted...lol...

i'm so tired and totally exhausted right now..couldn't catch up the old me..ah,i'm finish..gotta work more harder to fit up myself if not,i wont stand a chance to catch up with others...woo..super exhausted la..my eyes are heavy and they are closing fast...at the same time,my back is aching..if there is a human massage service free of charge..i will definitely be satisfied and enjoyed myself there..haha..

林育羣-未來的第一站MV

2010-12-09T10:46:00.000+08:00

you know what?there will be a better future if there is love haha thats what i said lol

i'm back fellows

2010-12-09T10:10:00.002+08:00

phew...finally...spm is gonna over soon...left the hardest subject to score...its mandarine!!!!omg..this particular subject is a headache for me though i'm chinese...lol...let it be la..haha..time flies,its december of 2010 now which means this year gonna end soon..heads up boys and girls,new year awaiting

i have half a year to rest before get on going to school..haha..i'm sure its gonna be super duper sang..slacking has always been my hobby..lol..nah,gotta get some work to earn some pocket money...hope i can find a high pay,low rate of work,and high flexibility..omg!!!is there such work in this world?haha..ya,there is!!!!KEEP ON DREAMING zzzzzzz

its been so long since i've come up here,after graduation...SPM???nah...whats over is over..we cant changed the past but make a better future..haha..first come first,the first thing in the to-do-list is burn of some fats..yup,after graduating and exited the door of committee..what i gained was fats..haha..gonna resume training soon to stay fit...its a tough road...ARGH!!!

well,thats all..i'm alone in the home...plus a nice sleeping weather but now I MISSSSSESSSS YOU SO MUCH!!!

signing off

part of photos from graduation day (18SG)

2010-10-31T01:28:00.000+08:00

chung ling form 5 prefects

form 5 cadets with mr lye and headmaster

me and patrick

tatt seng and me

me + tree + woodpecker aka birdy aka tiaw wen zhuo
this photo means cintai akan alam sekitar lol

duck aka lim yu xian and me

cadets

form 5 prefects again haha

3 gay lous though only 2 of them were acting

me and the king of ant aka teh jin yee

chen choong and me best primary buddies till now

me and kang qi (gundam fans)

shih hui (杰出领袖）,chun keat and me(i'm so steam >.<)

goat aka lye yu yang and me

dinner at shobu shobu

2010-10-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

the bill tadaaa!!!

i've just started haha

i'm the boss ordering them haha

my so called "family"

beginning of the dinner

class dinner at shobu shobu with the price of rm32 per pax and no time limiting..how good..we ate as much as we could and enjoyed ourself..playing with the food making jokes around together..i had great time with josh..haha..we joke and crap alot..he and i shared a pot of clear soup..and we ate cleared rounds and rounds..oh ya..i'm getting fat lol...

having the craziest idea by putting your camera on the food belt and record a video with your camera..haha..anyone can be crazier than my class??nobody..lol..its fun..during the start,when our nasi lemak delivery guy start to pawn those meat..we had no meat left to eat as he sat at the very beginning of the belt..haha..nevermind,we waited and enjoying ourselves until he was fully refilled..haha

had loads of photos with friends and even a group photo right outside at the entrance of shobu shobu...thanks to aunty (wah loon's mum) who treat us generously by giving us the best...haha..after 2 hours of dinner,kooi jin, josh and i went to cyc and started daytona..our boss,mister ong requested the loser will provide free sundae cone to the winners..and it turned out to be him...he didn't accept the fate that he lost and treat us another race..

unfortunately either josh of the machine was steaming at that time..he could not participate..so its just me and kooi jin one on one..it turns out that,kooi jin don't know how to daytona..lol..who want pawn him,ajak him daytona..haha..lose twice in a row...haha..shoot some baskets before i went home..haha..

thats all
signing off,
1.26 am 31th of october

graduation day

2010-10-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

30th of October...a big day for all tiong leng form 5 and upper 6..its our graduation day!!!!!!!!its kinda boring when you have to sit in the hall doing nothing but listening "attentively" to the speeches and seeing all of your friends going up to the stage to take prize 1 by 1..

in the end of the graduation ceremony,we have something like a mini concert which was very very down??it all ended up with paper plane and paper ball throwing all around the hall...and we have to clean the rubbish..lol..Mr.Yeap was generous enough and even asked us to jump or get high..but we can't do so..lol..WHY!!!???

there are several pairs of hawk eyes are aiming and looking for its prey..omg!!!and you wanted us to be high under the screening of them??!!i would not wanted to risk my leaving school cert for getting high for about 5 minutes??wise choice..lol..

nothing much to say about graduation ceremony..most of the school will be the same i guess..next,congratulations to shih hui and zi xun for getting 杰出领袖 and jie en for getting 杰出毕业生...farewell my friends..

5SA4 Pizzzzzaaaa Feeaassttt

2010-10-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

worst case scenario------tan khai wei

look at his face..covered with sweat..imagine that 2 packets of chilli flakes on one small piece of pizza XD

one of mine victim----tan zhi kai

before feasting lol

On 25th of October,my class 5sa4 happen to be turning on the pizza feast once again..and this will be the last time before our graduation..haha..sorry for those who ponteng, there won't be a next time XD

well,as most of the form 5 A Class student's know,we 5sa4 is the only A class which always ordered delivery to school during school hours..and we take up our package after recess..thats the amazing part of it..imagine a student holding some pizzas and rush back to class without getting caught,he will be the hero of our class..lol..and of course those people are well trained and can adapt very well under circumstances..

this time our class had a total of 4 pizzas...we enjoyed it during maths period..haha..just how generous is our maths teacher for letting us munching and crunching our delicious pizza in the class lol..i'm lame i know..zz..i didn't eat the pizzas as i was full after the bread i ate during recess..but thats not it..i trick them and played my friends..haha..

i have loads of time to walk here and there and search for one thing..CHILLI FLAKES...i tear it up and loaded them on to the pizzas secretly..many of my classmates get it all right thats good..haha..i'm so enjoying myself..the worst was khai wei asked by our maths teacher :"khai wei why are you sweating so much?" haha i'm so EVIL!!!!

among those victims are tan khai wei,robin ong,adrian lim,tan zhi kai..and much more???lol..i'm so evil!!!!gosh...i'm gonna miss that..haha..

before spm=after pmr???

2010-10-23T11:52:00.000+08:00

like the title of my post,before spm=after pmr??guess you are curious of what i'm talking about right??haha..well..after pmr,the form 3's ginas are surely ending up their time in playing in school,by obeying or even disobeying the school rules..haha..

uno card,poker,handphones,psp,chess set..anything will do..well well,we are going to have spm in around a month???time does not matters when it comes to play and slack..haha..my class is having poker everyday..lol..even mahjong and poker hand made from paper!!!!haha..hiong leh???so many gamblers in my class..

almost everyone of us aren't studying for spm but enjoying and relaxing ourselves like those finished pmr students..haha..poker cards,uno cards,chess set(around the whole year),handphones and even psp!!!ya you did not see wrong,its PSP!!!lol..other class has iphones too..

if one day,there's a spotchek,i wonder are there enough hands to hold the confiscated things..haha..i even wonder will they have the skill to confiscated even a single piece of thing..haha..i'm a prefect too,but this are the doubt me and my friends always wondering..lol

也许

2010-10-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

也许我不懂得爱

也许我的举止会令你受到伤害

也许我重来都未成熟过

也许我一直都是个小孩

也许我的执著令我想不开，忘不了，放不下

也许执著是件不好的事

也许这一切的一切都只是谎言

也许这一切的一切都是假象

也许我不会爱也许我真的错了

也许我自负了也许我真的真的失败了

也许面对是痛苦的也许这一切都只是考验

也许我们不该分离也许我们不该开始

也许我只是想想而已，说说而已

也许失去了都没关系也许可以重来

也许这只是也许

也许。。。。

迷失方向

2010-10-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

考完试的同伴们，都尽情的玩，有些也很努力的继续为大考暗拼。。。

考完试的我却像在大海中的船只，人有海浪带着飘，毫无方向的一直往前飘。。。

究竟，我该往哪儿前进呢？是否需要停下脚步，重新振作，在继续冲？？束手无策的我，每天都浑水摸鱼地过着日子。。没有目标的日子，是否这么的快乐？一点也不！！！

好像回到冲前的冲前，没有顾虑，没有烦恼，悠闲自在，轻松快乐的过日子，生活也比较开朗些。。也许时间长乐，人也变了，烦恼也多了，问题也多了，生活节奏也间接的加速了。。。

真的好想好向有人可以陪我，陪我做轻松的事，快乐的事，悠闲自在的事，只可惜，要这一切的到来，只可凭空想象，往往都不可能实现。。哎。。生活就是如此的反复无常。。

剩下近一个月，我却无法专心，踏稳脚步，安静的努力。。。。。。

after a long time

2010-10-09T13:03:00.000+08:00

after kadet polis agm,i didn't jog for a long time,so today went to youth park to prepare ourself for the city run coming on 17th of october..

i planned to run 3 big and 3 small rounds in the botanical garden,but after the 3rd big round,i'm flatten,exhausted,tired and most importantly LAZY!!!!!!gossh..how am i gonna finish city run?lol

then,walk the way back to youth park,on the half way,reach moon gate and decided to hike..WTF???!!!exhausted liao still hike?i must be nuts that time..whatever,we hike with our will,its tough..oh ya,it is tough..my muscles are aching along the way..but soon,reached the top..

after some beverage break,went down to youth park..and crapping with khai wei,yu yang and kang qi all the way down..thats what we do today..lol..seems boring huh?we enjoyed ourselves..by going there again reminds me the pre-camp of kadet polis..that time was only one word to describe syok..haha..

in the pre-camp,we form 4's carry 5 litres of water to the top of the hill and did not stop or said tired,today i got a total different feeling..we were up there by empty hands but we felt very tough and nearly gave up though we didn't XD

time flies,i'm old and rusted..needa train more..

first time to neway

2010-10-09T12:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to neway to celebrate khai wei's birthday...

i enjoyed myself there with the the birthday boy (khai wei),his sis (yiwen),chea tze,chea yee,kai feng,zhe yi,seong sun,ken,wen zhuo and kang qi...i had eaten most of the food since nobody wants to eat them XD i'm so fat now T.T thanks to you all aduhai..

then the guys went home one by one since 6pm..i alone walk with the brother and the sister..went in many shops and explore almost every part of it..their expenditure was @#&^%$! no point,they are rich haha

went out from 3 and reach home at 10..woah..i'm so naughty..lol talk crap a lot with khai wei,and he was so perverted omg!!!maybe mix me too much>?i'm so bad...T.T

final exams over

2010-10-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

yesh!!!!!finally,my trials are over...woohoo!!!!happy me!!!lol

now i'm addicted to the anime gundam 00...holy..its fascinating..thanks to that lim yee heng..haha

he is the one that lend me to copy anime...still got loads of anime in the desktop..lazy to transfer..lol

i did very badly in my biology this time..hope it won't be very low,at least meets my targets will do.

haha..gundam00 here i come..

signing off..

If and only IF i had a choice

2010-09-28T15:41:00.000+08:00

if i had a choice i will choose my own path

if i had a choice i will do what is best to please everybody

if i had the strength i will go against the mighty ones

if i had the courage i will be overthrowing every obstacles

if i had a choice i would want to be best of the best so that everybody will be satisfy

if i had the power to turn around the world i will turn it

if i had a chance to step back to the past i will

if i can stop the time and manage everything again i will

if i am that brave i hope to be disappear from this dimension

yes i am selfish and timid thats what you can conclude

i am scare of everything which makes me a failure in every outcomes

seeing her down makes me sad i am too a human being with a soft heart

gAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhHHHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

just hope to get an terrible bang on the head and bid farewell to all the memories

LIFE WAS BETTER THAN IT IS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i had a choice.....................................................

9月24日

2010-09-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

曾经有一段恋情摆在我眼前，我没好好把握，如今却因专著学业而中断，心中有千百个不舍都没办法，只得逼着自己放下。今天这个日期，是我已在仙境的一位朋友---庄伟翔（不知是否有错，如有错误请多包涵，别来找我算账啊！！）的生日，在此祝他生日快乐，(那里应该有蛋糕吧！)。

此外，这一天也是我和她的周年，当然要不是分开了，我们就有一年了吧，她教会我许多东西，而这些只有我俩知道，不许告诉你们。哈哈哈哈。。。五言绝句就别忘记了，虽然我记不起我写什么，哈哈，因为送她了，没有收着样本。。

考试时，突然又想念了她，因而又为她提笔创作。。以下是我的作品，小弟创作能力差，请各位睁一只眼闭一支眼大概大概看过就可以了。。哈哈。。

没有你的日子里

我尝试寻找自己

虽然我们已成知己

我依然还是自己

一样如此爱你

希望你不再消极

要好好照顾自己

找寻真正的自己

实现理想中的目的

别怕迷失自己

我依旧在这里

耐心地等待你

不管千百个世纪

我依旧守着你

直到你离去

trials

2010-09-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

trials coming soon..hope i won't die ka very cham..

and get disappointing marks..

75 and above will do for me..i guess..as i didn't get anything like that before in the previous exam.

all right then..good luck to all tiong leng kias..

jia you jia you..

gogogo!!!

suddenly felt down..haha

sorry sorry

2010-09-12T02:27:00.000+08:00

sorry my dear..this is the last post that i will refer you as my dear..

i know that i aint a perfect boyfriend,i aint good enough for you..but i'm still happy that at least i tried..and i will keep our moments as a gift from you and the gods..

i'm sorry to hurt you like that,its my fault..you have nothing to do with it..i hope you understand my feelings and my thoughts,a promise is a promise..

i apologize to you for not keeping my promise to you..i'm sorry my dear..

i hope we can still maintain to be best friends instead of strangers..goodbye my love..T.T

knock again = 53rd merdeka day?

2010-09-02T17:24:00.001+08:00

what the?oh yea!!

i knock the car again during merdeka..

it was 530 in the morning and when i was turning into a corner..

my tyre hit the corner and pom..

it deflated,puncture..drag it to school slowly then..

went for the merdeka parade marching competition..

wasn't lucky enough to get the champion...thanks to our new slogan 1 Malaysia..

we manage to get only runner up..

what i can say for that competition is:

我们收到大众的肯定，却得不到评审的眼睛

after that,reached school to get changed and return home..

i've learnt how to switch puncture tyres with spare tyres in the back of the car and inflate the tyre..all thanks to this minor accident..lol

went to sakae for dinner and met yee heng..

well,i log on to facebook and saw his post..

"i drove home safely from qb..phew.."

thats all..trials coming,gambateh..

step up 3 is definitely a nice movie..

you wanna know why?coz i just finished it..haha

车祸

2010-08-28T17:27:00.000+08:00

昨日下午，从补习回家途中，我妈的车被别人轻轻的撞了

他突然地从我的左边冲了出来，我来不及刹车之下便被他撞了

结果，我就一走了之，没有下车看看，因为觉得只是轻轻地擦过而已

岂料，回家一看，车子头凹了一点进去。

告诉了父母，却得到的不是关心的问候，是否问我有没有事。

而是被骂了一顿，一直都在骂我为何没有下车和别人谈判，索取赔偿

现实的生活是否已被钱财埋没？人间还有温馨吗？人间还有关怀吗？

发生了车祸，难道就是车子比人还重要吗？

如果在那起车祸中，不幸的事发生了，那时是人比较重要还是车子呢？

人间有爱？这是骗人的吧。。。

just ignore me for posting this...

accident

2010-08-27T22:05:00.001+08:00

i met an accident this afternoon..

i will talk about it tomorrow..

i'm not in a mood to talk right now,

time for red alert 2

haih

2010-08-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

sorry dear,i knew that i shouldn't make you worry..

i will learn to control myself next time..you should learn to control too,ok?

thats only fair ma..muackz..

sorry to frightened you just now..sorry..

i love you..muackz..

i'm back to normal

2010-08-24T15:03:00.000+08:00

well,i'm back to normal now..haha

basketball competition ended last sunday,and we KINGS won the 3rd place..

if there were not any form six team,we will be in the 1st XD

upper six get the 1st and lower get the 2nd...

i wonder how lower sixth can get to be so sporting and willing to give up the champion?

that surely need lots of guts and bravery,i don't think i will be able to do that..because i ain't them

having basketball "practice" with classmates,and we met a pro..kena bully ka siao...soon we ended the game by losing..that pro's shooting was like accuracy 90%..

well,gotta go,have to finish miss yeoh's karangan..tomorrow's the dateline..but i have no idea how to write it..i'm finish XD

stop!!!

2010-08-18T19:17:00.000+08:00

Why cant i stop?why is there competitions and competitions lining up waiting for me?

i wanted to stop,but it is my duty to go..how can i stop like this?

i need to concentrate on trials,with competitions coming,how can i concentrate?gosh..

i'm gonna be so busy again..must start study alone and silently..i won't be able to beat those guys that look down upon me before if i don't do so..

feeling ill now..damn it..i'm so sick..argh..so tired..can anybody help me to release myself from everything?

tired

2010-08-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

so fast 1 week had passed...what did i do within this week?

nothing,absolutely nothing..omg!!

trail is coming and yet,i have not started my studies..gone cased!!

finally succeeded in not touching my laptop for around 1 week until now..

although i've been able to fight against that will,but i'm too tired to study..XD

eventually,i went to school sleep throughout the day..spending some time to slack..

and now sleepy eyes looking on the screen updating my so called dead blog lol

i'm just so tired of everything..haih

Lost

2010-08-07T12:46:00.000+08:00

Kings first loss in the basketball competition..

we fought hard against lower sixth..and still we lost in the end..

88-66..thats the final score..

we were no match for their agility..they were fast and accurate..

i played a memorable game,and i seriously enjoyed that very much..

i hope you guys do so too..

let us rest well and fight cipli on the next match..

move ourself to the finals..thats the last match before finals..

its the entry and exit to the finals..

let us play well in our top form and pawn them!!!

long live the KINGS!!!!!!!

至未来的接班人

2010-07-27T19:25:00.000+08:00

至未来的接班人，如果你们看到这篇，就应知道自己犯了什么，自我检讨最总要！！！
在我们执委还未退位之前，一切团体事务，都是由我们来扛来担直到你们上位
对自己的制服不负责任才会把它给弄不见，这是第一个错
制服不见了，先找谁都应该知道，却没有在第一时间通知对的人，这是第二个错
滥用权力乃是所有领导人的禁忌，而你们也反了，恭喜你们让F4学生轰动一时，这是第三个错
在做任何决定之前，没有通知任何高层就直接去做了，这是第四个错

希望你们日后别再犯同样的错误，我实在失望

Peace Run

2010-07-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

Went Peace Run 2010 this early morning..
i met lots of tiong leng kias as usual haha
we participate not for peace but for the cert lol
met loads of leng luis too
this is my second peace run participation
i joined since last year and i completed the run much more faster than this year's
oh my!!i'm old!!!
anyway,the condition of my own health was the same
i recovered from fever just the day before the run
do i have to suffer this next year?hope not haha
phew,now my muscle ache..
tada got to rest my eyes

basketball competition

2010-07-18T22:23:00.001+08:00

tomorrow will be the basketball competition..
spent rm100 on admiral's shoes yesterday,and my parents bought another pair of nike shoes which cost rm250..sim tia nia..T.T
well well
this is my final year,i hope my team can get good results and make it to the final..
although its a tough and harsh way to go,i think that we will accomplish it anyway..
i remembered that yi zhang was one of us last year,now he is not in the team,
i will play well this year,not afraid of being knock down,because i believe that he will perli me if i chicken in the court..haha
good luck to all of you..we shall meet in the court tomorrow,spirit up..
long live the KINGS!!!!!!!!!1

eclipse

2010-07-18T09:32:00.000+08:00

went to watch eclipse last night with my darling and her cousins and yes of course with my bro..
we went straight away after tuition,thats why i didn't go for basketball..haha
the show was too much of talking i think,should have added more fighting scenes
overall its ok,my friends say bella was a slut,haha..
they think that she kiss here and there,with two mans at the same time,
woah..could you imagine that in our life?ha
somebody gonna be sad to having that kind of girlfriend,
i like the part when jacob told edward "you know that i'm hotter than you"
wooots..the whole cinema burst into laughter,haha
you know what that means,in physically its true anyway..
i think edward felt am teh many times in the movie especially when he told edward not to find jacob and bella went straight away to jacob..lols..
thats for all now,
i had a great day with you..
muackz..

National Service

2010-07-18T09:13:00.000+08:00

Whats wrong with getting selected with the national service anyway?haha
it would be a fun camp,i don't understand why does so many people hate it..
trying to find methods to escape it,or even thinking of bribing the doctor to produce a fake medical letter..haha
what for?lol..
we should think positively,kena ma kena lor,ki ma ki lor..thats nothing to fear about..
some says its a waste of time,some says scared to be a black person,some says the activity is tough,some says we will never be back,some says the food sucks(maybe its true xP,i never taste be4,but i'm sure its super hot)
hardly a few people say this,its fun,its enjoyable..lol
so boys and girls,be proud to be selected,go there to enjoy,think positively and you won't suffer there,trust me..haha
by the way,i ain't so lucky to get selected for national service..

2010 world cup

2010-07-12T05:47:00.000+08:00

Spain won this year's world cup..
unfortunately,my dear friend alvin lee loss his bet on getting a french kiss..haha
the goal was scored by ANDRES INIESTA which assist by Fabregas during the 116th minute..
netherlands played well either,sneidjer defended very well throughout the game..
many golden opportunities were given to both teams..
as a conclusion,both team played well,i meant it,very well..
although it took a long time haha..
gonna mengantuk in school so soon..haha..
congrats to spain once again..
Viva La Espana!!!!!!!!!

international student camp marching performance

2010-07-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

today was the international student camp and we have a marching performance like i said in the previous post.
it all went well though,much better than i have expected but it doesn't reach the standard that i hoped.
to all outsiders,we were all good,and perfect,
but with 5 years experience in marching,
our performance was totally a disappointment.
my fellow brothers,it is not that i hope too high or anything,
do all of you think,its enough in that way?
it can be pushed to a higher level,but most of you did not wanted to push yourself.
thats just so disappointed,anyway,it will be my last performance,i will just get over it soon..
juniors aren't suppose to be blame when they have try their very best,
but seniors??
why couldn't you just show it all to everyone that you can and you are good at it?
its so stupid and fed up whenever i see you marching,
i'm glad that my parents and you came,although i couldn't talk to you,but its good to see you there.
i wish that my next president will be doing a greater job than me,i'm a failure president,its the fact.ha
thanks for coming my dear,
love you.

hope

2010-07-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be the international student camp of my school
and cadet police have been selected to do a marching performance.
all our performance during training was not good at all
it will be my final in wearing full uniform in my secondary in a performance.
well,i hope i will have an incredible and unforgettable experience since this is my final year..
i truly hope that everyone of the cadets will show everyone what are we made off tomorrow.
show them our strength
show them our spirit
show them our force
let them know that we are the best and unbeatable.
do all your best and never fall apart
give in everything you've got and don't look back.
i don't care what they see,what they think or what they say,
all i want is each of you give in all you've got in tomorrow's marching.
it will be a best gift to me before my retirement.
good luck to each of us.
and to someone or somebody,i hope that you will be there,looking me in my last performance..
i know i ain't that good,
i can't reach the aim you set,
i didn't try or did i try,
it is still the same,
i knew how to tolerate,
i am a childish boy,
please forgive me for my childish behavior.
一个内向的人，究竟有谁能懂得他的心声呢？

moody

2010-06-24T00:49:00.001+08:00

I'm moody right now,
ya right now,
can somebody humor me?
can somebody cheer me?
sweetheart,you're excluded for i know that you are busying with your nie..ha
i think that you've been sleeping like a pig already haha
its early in the morning,1 am to be specific,
and here i am.
my phone is cool during the night,
not even a single beep or ring,
its so abnormal,
but lets face fact.lol
good morning.
i'm trying to get some sleep,
damn khai wei,you this si gay lou,
your pj projek speh long,i copy ka ktl ah!!!!!
argh!!!
sayonara fellows

Happy Birthday

2010-06-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday may yong
happy 17 ya,old liao lor..haha
good luck in your olimpiad la..lol
can't sing for you,so type for you
HaPpY bIrThDaY tO yOu
hApPy BiRtHdAy To YoU
HaPpY bIrThDaY tO mAy YoNg
hApPy BiRtHdAy To YoU
haha,syok liao boi?lol..
sorry ya dear,didn't do this for you but do it for her XD
at least you got what she don't right?haha
please don't be mad at me har..muackz.
love you.

anger

2010-06-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

whats the matter with you?
i talk phone with a girl,so what?
no big deal right?i mean that's boy's nature..
plus,i live in that way,and you know it well.
dang,why should it have to end in this way?c'mon
i tried to ask,but you ignored me..
when the time i ignored you,you asked me again.
yeah,taste what i taste....
yeah,its all my fault,i did not stood at your point of view..silly me..
i'm so piss...dang..
just expressing myself

soon,i was fetching my cousin to tuition,and my bro back from tuition..
you know what?i drove with anger,i speed along the road and did not slow down.
whenever the light turned green,i rushed ahead..
its so fun,and i must be out of my mind?
so what?
who cares?
i'm lovin it..
i drove like a professional LMAO
its nothing though
anyway,for all drivers,please not to act ruthlessly like me..
its for your own and everybody's sake..
driving with anger is fun yet dangerous..
don't ever try it as it may cause you your life..
thats all,safety first..
utamakan keselamatan..haha..XD

good night,
i'm sorry T.T

chung ling's sports day 2010

2010-06-17T09:01:00.000+08:00

sports day is over for around a month?haha
and now i only update,sorry ya,busy ma..
too much business..keep working to earn for life XDD
FYI,i'm lazy to search photos and upload it..
i bet all of you have already seen those photos
well then,this year's sports day..
we kadets' of chung ling won the 1st in marching and followed by st john at the 2nd placing.
in the usual year,the school will just give a trophy for the winners,
but this year we get a extra medal..haha
although we got the 1st.but in truth,you should see our marching that day by yourself.
its so teruk..omigosh..have nothing to say it..
maybe our school standards are low or others are not that good?
i don't think that we are supposed to get that placing.
its a shame..haih..
i won a sliver medal in 4x400m run..haha
thanks to my team mate la..they ran faster then me..
i think its time to let me build up my stamina and my long hardened muscles..
oh,and before i forget,this is our 9th first place trophy,good luck to president to be in next year's sports day..
have a nice day..
tired and sleepy nia..haha

its been awhile

2010-06-09T16:03:00.000+08:00

hello there,its been awhile since my last post..haha..
now i will tell you guys something about hari kor kadet polis which was a past tense.XD
we chung ling kadet police was proud to be chosen to take part in the kawalan kehormatan,which is not true..haha
what a waste of time,but those officers in fru need our help to fulfill their job..
so we're chosen...haha..just joking..
among the kawalan kehormatan,other school's kadet polis were chosen too..
from the boys are chung ling,al-masyhur and westland
whereas the girls are from peng hua,sggs,and cgl i guess,not sure about the girls cause have absolutely no interest in them..
it was a successful day,lesser people in the kawalan fall during the event,
it was a good thing,hope it will be better during the next year,of course i aint there anymore,it will be my last this year..
nice memory though..thanks all of you for giving me such a nice memory
and of course thanks the organizers,schools,for allowing us to meet in such a small place and get to know each other and have fun with each other..
there are some photo for this particular day,i tried to find as much as possible..
well,here goes
all of this were taken from my profile in facebook.

i'm still alive

2010-05-12T23:03:00.001+08:00

yo,everybody still hanging on?
i'm back to tell all of you that visits this lovely place i'm still alive..
many things occured and used up most of my time to blog..
makes me tired everyday plus the unstable emotion makes me not even thinking to blog.
haha..right now i'm ok so far..
i will update something about my school's sports day and hari kor kadet polis
as soon as possible right after exam..haha
stay tuned ya..
to all peng hua gals,good luck in your exams.
all the best.
gambateh ya darling.
tiong leng kias,started to am pia d huh..well good luck then.

thats all for now..
stay tuned..

signing off....
good night...
love you..
muacksz.

random

2010-04-28T21:09:00.000+08:00

好想放松，却放不开
好向停止，却听不下
平淡的生活，何时而来？
枯燥的生活，何时而去？
我想我疯了
得不到却很想要
累一直都移不开
忙一直都存在
何时才能的我所求？
我不仅在挣扎
挣扎又是为了什么？
毫无目标的奋斗，值得吗？
所得到的成绩，使我所想要得吗？
我不想了，豁出去，勇往直前
不回头看，结果是否精彩，成果是否值得
我已毫无顾虑，走出从不属于我的路

random post

2010-04-25T20:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday was totally boring in school..
wasted lots of time..
but enjoyed much in physics exam..
got to crap with han pheng,haha
make lots of noise in the class..
last night had a great time with my dear..
thanks for the dinner har..
love you..
tomorrow sejarah class test..allah
our "dearest" mr chong wai leong ain't attending our class..
thats what he told us..
so we will be having 2 periods to slack again..
after school will be going to FRU for the kawalan kehormatan training..
hope i can get elected to be SM..haha..
dreaming ba..

The 9th annual prefects footdrill competition

2010-04-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

well,as i said,i missed chung ling's annual hiking and went to this competition..
basically its competition between prefects around the island..
but so far i've just seen all chinese school's prefect..
not to mention those horses..lol
well,reached school at 6 to warm up and refresh those who forgot the marching steps..
and well well,i used 11 minutes and 30 sec for the whole set of training..
oh my god,what a long time but still within 12 minutes..
and you know what?
during the competition,it just took 9 minutes and 47 seconds..
too fast and too furious..haha
okok,i know i'm crapping..so i will just cut the crap and skip to the awards..
do not be shocked when you know or heard or even saw the results..haha..
here goes..

basic footdrill champion for my team leading by ang pheay rong and first runner up by zhi cheng's team leading by leong zhi cheng himself.haha

this is the overall basic footdrill champion
we won twice including last year

this the trophy for formation footdrill champion
leading by me,myself and the cooperation of the whole team.

this is the overall footdrill champion.
its the first year and perhaps will be the last in getting this

well..erhem..these 2..erhem..best commander in basic footdrill which goes to ang pheay rong and best commander in formation footdrill which goes to me..muahahaha

boys are harsh and not gentle
i do agree that,see what did they do to the trophy
after the trophy had left my hands about one and a half hours.
omigosh.

as for the whole,results are as below if i'm not wrong.
basic footdrill overall champion-CLHS
basic footdrill champion-SHHS and CLHS
basic footdrill 1st runner up-HEHS and CLHS
basic footdrill 2nd runner up-UNION and SHHS
basic footdrill best commander-Ang Pheay Rong from CLHS
formation footdrill overall champion-CLHS
formation footdrill champion-CLHS
formation footdrill 1st runner up-PCGHS
formation footdrill 2nd runner up-SHHS
formation footdrill best commander-Benny Tock Yee Kai from CLHS

as a total results,
CLHS roared over BOP around penang island
and grab 7 out of 13 awards this year..clap clap

annual mountain hiking

2010-04-17T20:11:00.000+08:00

today was chung ling's annual mountain hiking and i've missed it..
went for the 9th annual prefects footdrill competition.haha
congrats chua hao yong aka monkey in getting the position of 11 in the hike.
speh geng nia u.

Percy Jackson again

2010-04-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

i just can't believed it,i finished percy jackson third and fourth book together today..wow!!
but apparently,i took more than that..haha..
1st book-percy jackson and the lightning thief i used 1 day,
2nd book-percy jackson and the sea monster i used 3 days,
3rd book-percy jackson and the titan's curse i used 3 days,
4th book-percy jackson the battle of the labyrinth i used 1 day
and today i finally finished percy jackson 3rd and 4th as i said at the beginning..aha
i may pause in pursuing percy jackson for awhile,
running out of time for exam,omg..
so the 5th book-percy jackson and the olympians.
i might read it during holidays i think..
see ya

feelings to be expressed

2010-04-16T21:07:00.000+08:00

my dear oh my dear,
right or wrong which is not our decision,
complicate situations we shall go through together,
do not believe completely ones word,
that is what those dissapointed people said,
you can rely on me without fear,
for i will not harm you nor destroy you,
when you feel like falling just fall freely,
and i shall rise and grab hold on you,
any choices made or taken i will respect,
for what i want is you to see you smile,
betrayal is not what i was born for,
but loving you will never i deny,
nothing is impossible when we say yes,
for i standby you in everywhere,
not feeling well but denies i'm sick,
and here i am siting to blog,
glory or not nothing matters,
tomorrow's competition i will try my best,
expectations are been made,
limitations are for us to cross,
once we are over the border,
then,there we stood with the throne.
something's missing in the middle of my heart,
and yet,i couldn't figure what was it,
and still i'm here blogging,
for the last thing i wanna say,
my dear my darling,
we will be going through everything,
do not be afraid of anything,
you've got me and i'm always here,
good night my dear good night my darling,
have pleasant dreams in your night,
may peace come to you and calm you,
forgive and forget thats the point,
my dear my darling,
here i misses you so so much,
i love you.

突然而来的思想

2010-04-13T15:10:00.000+08:00

昨天，有人告诉我，
该严的时候就要严，
该闹的时候就该闹，
然而，身为领袖的我，
却没有做到这点，
也把它给忽略了，
我觉得是时候学习和实践了。
对别人心软相等于对自己残忍，
当你默默无言，
别人讲得过且过，得寸进尺。
每个人心底都有一把尺，
其用途就是测量你对事宽容大方的程度。
我觉得自己的那把尺太长，
因而是到我一点也不在意，
不放在心里。
没有主见的我，
能在着社会立足吗？
能走出一个成功的人生吗？

Percy jackson

2010-04-10T18:05:00.000+08:00

i've finish Percy Jackson and the sea monsters
haha
waiting to borrow the third book
Percy Jackson and the Titan's curse if i'm not wrong about the name.
its so busy these days,tired,exhausted,
all because of training,training,and training.
nothing else..
its kinda boring too..
well,whatever,all of these are going to end soon..
awaiting the day arrives..
strike out the best me
and give all in one..
as what we say one for all,all for one..
chung ling glory

8/4/2010的启示

2010-04-10T06:25:00.000+08:00

人是由脾气的动物
人的忍耐程度都不一样
当我们忍无可忍，压抑不住时
我们都会爆发一切
把心中不满意以发泄出来
语气重了些，也充满火药味
当别人发泄在我们身上时
只有退一步，让一步，才能把事化无
别以为自己德高权重，就目中无人
不会被人反，被人拉下台
只要稍微越过极限,被拉下台，被人反，
也只不过是如此
面子是人家给的，羞耻是自己找的
今日一切当作经验
胜利之门只为愿意牺牲的佼佼者而开
你们是等待发芽的种子
经过一切灌溉，施肥，才会冒然长出来，并茁壮成长
只要大家肯付出，努力，用心，
可想而知，我们将是天上的星星，高高在上，发出灿烂的光芒
时机成熟时，就是我们发光发热之时

missing you,my dear

2010-04-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

i miss you a lot my dearest...
where were you when i needed you most?
why didn't you show yourself when i date you?
why didn't you picked up my phone when i dialed?
i went through all the way just to be with you and what did i get in the end?
a cracked heart..
my darling wendy,please come back..
please listen to me for a moment at least if thats the way.
i will not be disturbing you anymore,
i will not show myself anymore,
i will disappear from your life ever,
just hoped that i have a chance to tell you what i wanted you to know before its too late.
miss you..
love you..

haha

2010-03-31T20:55:00.001+08:00

was scolded by my dad one minute ago for i am siting in front of the laptop
he scolded me because i sit in front at it once i reached home.
plus,he scolded me for not doing homework when i reached home.
but what to do?
the image of my maths homework is impossible to be reflected to his eyes when he is standing at the door without any help of mirror or things that have reflective surface
haih..
let it be ba..
nothing i can do..
just be a stone and let all the words inflict the damage on me
i won't fight back anymore..
i don't have any strength to fight back anymore..
just let it be
i felt sour and happy at the same time
happy because i did not fight back
sour because i still cannot control my emotion.
swt huh???!!!
anyway,take good care all of you
everybody is played by the bad weather these days..
falling sick one by one.
get well soon my dear.

Handball msspp

2010-03-30T16:50:00.000+08:00

hi boys and girls,i'm back updating again.
this time i'm telling ya all about handball msspp which was held yesterday.
due to exhaustion,i was unable to update it last night.haha
went to school as usual,manage to took the graduate class picture before leaving the school
my dad was waiting for me in the kantin,although the permission given was 11.10,
but i left at 12.55.
bo huat,i kut lat mar..
went to had mcd before going to st.georges..reached there around 2
we encounter technical problem thanks to our teacher advisor
but still manage to settle it in the end.

first match was against MBS.
damn,their players are so big size,muscular and tall..
one of their players changed in the public and omigosh.his muscles..........
and so we played,i blocked some of the shots with fright..
and it all ended up 8-1 victory against them

next match we are up to meet smk teknik
nothing special in this match.
so we won 10-0

3rd match against smk al-mashoor
it all started to rain heavily,
i'm all wet in and needed extra strength to run up and down the field.
this game,i made my mistake in defending,a player slip pass me,and i failed to secure him.
the game ended up 4-1
we are unstoppable

last match against smk tar
i didn't play in this match,as i already play full time in last two matches..
so give other team mate some chances to play..
won 6-0

therefore,we won handball msspp under-18 zon air itam
with our F6 players wei ping and wei lian
thats all for now,time to concentrate on other competitions..haha

both picture is taken by a malay uncle using yeap jayren's(our keeper) phone

this is taken with flash i think

its kinda blur because its dark and raining heavily outside.

clhs annual cross country run

2010-03-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

its recovering yaya

well,what did i told ya guys?my knee is recovering..haha
but too bad it can't recover completely within a week
so that i can be in my best shell to compete in msspp without worries..
oh yeah,with that injured knee,i still try my very best to finish clhs annual cross country run which was held on 26/3/2010
after finish running,i bent and check on my knee,and guess what?
it bleed again.haih.cant stretch too much la i think..
but nevermind that,i enjoyed my run,this was my last run in the year and in the school unless i study form 6 la..haha
i was pretty satisfied by the results..i ended up getting 12th in my final run..woootss..proud of myself nia..haha
but i ain't competing for the mountain hiking competition..
so,for those who wanted to compete but ain't got the qualification can ask me..
i give you my number free of charge..
by the way,congrats to clhs chinese debate team for getting champion..
tiong leng kia on!!!!!!!
misses you my dear..

the front of the medal

the back of the medal

黄组!全场总冠军!

i'm hanging in the air without touching the steps..woohoo!!!

甲组's winner
fyi,total have 3 groups.XD

i injured my leg

2010-03-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

this happened last week's saturday while i was playing basketball at npark..
thanks to my buddy goh han pheng's shoes..lol
well,it all happen when he guard me,and i was quite active that particular time.
i ran without noticing his shoes was there and
you can say either the word tersangkut or terpijak because no one really happen to see what happened
it happened very fast,i ran carelessly and of course clumsily,
fell and injured my leg..
whoa,it wasn't that pain compared to other injuries..haha..tough mar..
now its getting better and better.
i will try to be much more careful next time..
sorry to make you so worry..
muacksz..love you..

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thats what happen when you play without utamakan keselamatan..ouch!!

for all couples and singles

2010-03-19T12:22:00.000+08:00

关于爱情：不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有的就是最好的。不要认为还年轻可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情可以和你一起坐火车的。不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们富裕的。不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现因为这个原因而反放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。其实对于爱情，越单纯越幸福。一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的，经历的太多了，会麻木；分离多了，会习惯；换恋人多了，会比较；到最后，你不会再相信爱情；你会自暴自弃；你会行尸走肉；你会与你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子。

也许爱情是一部忧伤的童话，惟其遥远才真实。放弃一个爱你的人并不痛苦，放弃一个你爱的人那才痛苦。若是有缘，时间空间都不是距离，若是无缘总是相聚也无法合意。凡事不必太在意，更不需去强求，就让一切随缘。逃避不一定躲得过；面对不一定最难过；孤独不一定不快乐；得到不一定长久；失去不一定不再拥有。爱是一种享受，即使痛苦也会觉得幸福；爱是一种体会，即使心碎也会觉得甜蜜；爱是一种经历，即使破碎也会觉得美丽；不要因为寂寞而错爱，不要因为错爱而寂寞一生。

关于伴侣：伴侣不是结婚时发誓非你不娶或非你不嫁的那个人，而是发现你身上有许多缺点仍然选择你的那个人；伴侣不是生活中你爱吃黄瓜ta也爱吃黄瓜的那个人，而是你吃蛋清ta吃蛋黄的那个人；伴侣不是天黑了和你一起手挽手走进饭店的那个人，而是守在门口巴望你回来共进晚餐的那个人；伴侣不是和你大谈爱情，把“我爱你”挂在嘴边的那个人，而是和你平淡的唠叨柴米油盐、锅碗瓢盆的那个人。在幸福的婚姻中，伴侣已不是一个具体的人，而是你和ta在几十年的岁月中沉淀下来的：一份默契、一份温情、一份平淡、一份理解、一份宽容。爱ta就要让ra开心，这就是伴侣……

关于承诺：在古希腊传说中，情侣都将戒指套在对方的中指上，因为他们相信那儿有一根血管直通心脏。所以戒指的意思就是用心承诺！但是人世间有多少爱能生死白头，又有多少的情可以天长地久？所以你选择共度一生得未必是你最爱的，你最爱的未必能和你共度一生。多少的有情人走不进彼此的今生，只能苦苦地相约于来世；而多少的男男女女走过爱情走进婚姻却不会再珍惜彼此的付出。所以记得珍惜你爱的人，把每一个平淡的今天当成是彼此相依的最后一刻，好好握紧爱人的手，即使ta容颜已老，即使ta满面沧桑，那也是你记忆中永恒的温馨。别忘了守住对ta的承诺，别忘了牵住ta的手，一生一世一辈子……

关于人生：人生如梦，岁月无情。蓦然回首，才发现人活着是一种心情。穷也好，富也好，得也好，失也好。一切都是过眼云烟。想想，不管昨天、今天、明天，能豁然开朗就是美好的一天。不管亲情、友情、爱情，能永远珍惜就是好心情。记得有一个经典短信这样写着：曾经拥有的不要忘记；已经得到的更加珍惜；属于自己的不要放弃；已经失去的留作回忆；想要得到的一定要努力；累了把心靠岸；选择了就不要后悔；苦了才懂得满足；痛了才享受生活；伤了才明白坚强；总有起风的清晨；总有绚烂的黄昏；总有流星的夜晚。人生就像一张有去无回的单程车票，没有彩排，每一场都是现场直播。把握好每次演出便是对人生最好的珍惜。把握现在，畅享人生！

关于微笑：被人误解的时候能微微的一笑，这是一种素养；受委屈的时候能坦然的一笑，这是一种大度；吃亏的时候能开心的一笑，这是一种豁达；处窘境的时候能自嘲的一笑，这是一种智慧；无奈的时候能达观的一笑，这是一种境界；危难的时候能泰然一笑，这是一种大气；被轻蔑的时候能平静的一笑，这是一种自信；失恋的时候能轻轻的一笑，这是一种洒脱。不管是有什么事情，为了什么原因，我们每天都要开心一笑~~

关于生活：日出东海落西山，愁也一天，喜也一天；遇事不钻牛角尖，人也舒坦，心也舒坦；每天领取谋生钱，多也喜欢，少也喜欢；少荤多素日三餐，粗也香甜，细也香甜；新旧衣服不挑捡，好也御寒，赖也御寒；常与知己聊聊天，古也谈谈，今也谈谈；全家老少互慰勉，贫也相安，富也相安。

关于幸福：相传幸福是个美丽的玻璃球，跌碎散落在世间的每个角落。有的人捡到多些，有的人捡到少些，却没有人能拥有全部。爱你所爱选你所选，珍惜现在所拥有的一切。人活着就是一种心情，把握今天，设置明天，储存永远。只要用心感受，幸福就会永远存在。

人总是对自己拥有的东西不珍惜，直到不再拥有时才会加倍怀念，而在得知自己快失去自己所拥有的东西而又无能为力时，就寻死觅活地不肯放手，歇斯底里往往发生在这个时候，而对于生命的执著确实是到死才放手！

人生，没有那么简单……幸福伴随悲伤，快乐总和痛苦相伴，这就是人生。今天总要过去，明天充满未知，自己活得快乐没有遗憾就好

relax and had fun

2010-03-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

went to school today as usual saturday,
lots of new people,i mean f1 new members la..
1st time attending the activity,i don't think i'm that strict to them lor..
anyway,after training,went to watch f6's handball competition.
and i was the refree for 8 minutes.lmao!
went back around 1pm,had my lunch outside.
headed home to take a bath then off i go
after physics tuition,followed han pheng back his house to watch the replay nba match between phoenix suns and los angeles lakers..
kobe lose all his touch,even loosed ball..laugh him.XD
then,sang in his house when pei heng come to play guitar.
i just sat there and listen,i have no idea what they are talking about.all guitar stuff,speh chim.
had dinner in his house too,nice meal.thanks auntie..
walked to npark to play basketball.
had lots of fun,and guess what?i played in a total relax condition and scored most points.
wished i had that opportunity in the future..
reached home around 11,took a bath,and here i am blogging.haha.
enjoy the game,wooooooootssssss.

为何？？？

2010-03-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

最近一直都在下雨
就如我的心情
闷闷的，不高兴的
刚考完试且假期又到了
本来应该高高兴兴的
但我的考试成绩就出了
非常得不理想，习以为然
被骂，被训，被枪，被讲
都很正常。只是
得不到父母的鼓励
得不到父母的谅解
得不到父母的支持
得不到父母的信赖
这是我唯一所遗憾的
我改变自己却无法取得
想起这点我的心好悲
为何要逼我？难道成绩不理想就是差？
但至少我是靠自己的是劣软来的啊
我天生不爱读书，又有何奈？
我也不想成绩差，又能怎样？
知错能改，善莫大恶
我都没在作弊了，靠自己拼的
想读书时，却没有自己读书的自由
要怎么读才能进步就只有我自己知道
然而，我又有得选择吗？还不是得听你们的？
家里没有人可以教我，补习不明白就问，可也不明白就问朋友
然而，我想到朋友那里学习时，我有机会吗？
我的前途，都有你们掌握，我还能做什么？
跟你们顶嘴，被打的一定是我。
跟你们大声说话，被骂的也一定是我。
在我做任何事情，为何一点慰问，鼓励，都不能给我？
有相信过我吗？还是常常让你们失望而觉得不必再等着看我发挥的时刻？
幸亏从生活中，我结识了许多朋友。
是他们帮我捉回正道，是他们一直相信着我，是他们一至支持着我，
我才会坚持到现在。别常把我和别人比较因为我是你儿子
各有所长。难道这道理你们也不懂吗？
我的心真的真的好悲，我很想让你们看到这篇，不过，想了想，不必了。
因为，当你们看完这篇后，我得到的仅只有责备，责怪和责骂。
我真的好累，好想脱离这个壳，放下一切，好好地休息。

done badly

2010-03-09T14:47:00.000+08:00

well,i have nothing to say about exams..
i've done so badly..who to blame?
me,me,me and me.
blame me for my arrogance.
blame me for my ignorance.
blame me for my laziness.
thats what i have to say.
i'm quitting facebook and msn.
but am not quitting mafia wars.
i've found a way to access mafia wars without facebook.
am reconsidering to go back to tribalwars or perhaps dota?lol
so anyone that wish to find me.
can find me via sms,blog,or emails.
sorry for your inconvenience.haha.
sayonara facebook.sayonara msn.

cacat-disabled

2010-03-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

what will happen if i wasn't be able to walk?
will you leave me?
will all of you leave me?
who will stand by me?
who will stand with me until the end?
will my world changed?
will the bright colours still bright while the dark still the dark?
i'm in dilemma.

PAIN!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

i'm hurt.
pain is everywhere within me.
no matter how strong i am.
i am still a weakling to fight against it.
its power outrun me.
my will does not let me to fight it.
i'm not determined enough to fight pain.
the cure isn't a thing that can help right now.
i'm wounded badly.
suffered.
no matter what i do to avoid it.
it still comes back to haunt me.
i've lost my mind and my soul.
how much else could i still lost?
am i going to lose all i had?
will i be going to outrun pain?
i have no idea.
cure were no where to be found.
even time is useless.
i'm doomed

jian soong's house

2010-02-17T09:54:00.000+08:00

went jian soong's house to play firecrackers,
well,delayed a lot because of our mr jian soong
wanna karaoke for a bit only syok to go.
i didn't play much on the firecrackers,
just went there and watch them play,
it was fun watching them playing too.haha,am i nuts or what?
after the crackers,went back to his house to have supper.
guess whaT?supper with plenty of watermelons,honey dews,papayas,and jambus
lol.healthy and low fat ah.
right after i finish,somebody(i don't wanna kena xD)started to vain again and as usual.
we karaokeed until midnight around 130am then off we go.haha..
i slept around 230 that particular night.
yahoooo...
it was fun man,thanks for the invitation..haha
next year cheh sa going your house again..lol

年初二

2010-02-17T09:38:00.000+08:00

今天好热闹哦！
我叫了些朋友到我家来，
大多数都是初次到访吧，
怎样？我家还不赖吧？
早上还满迟醒的，大约九点多吧。
忙了整天，终于进毅到了。
我们一起安装我没动很久的电脑
超好笑的事，我们把monitor的plug差错位置。
让我还以为monitor坏了，真是的。
不久朋友们都陆陆续续到来。连舞狮团也迟到？？
我家挤满人群，热闹极了。
五十团表演完毕，我就去点鞭炮，谁知，
鞭炮以燃烧，我还没来得及炮就开始爆了。
真的好险，差一点九粉身碎骨了。
我们就吃火锅和谈天。
一切都到六点左右吧，大家都回了，只剩一些亲戚在拼着。
我也参了一份，当时运气不错啦，还应了rm3。
就这样，我的年初二就如此开心地过去了。
这一天，我很高兴。

失眠的夜

2010-02-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

有种感觉叫伤痛
我染上了这感觉
心中觉得一切将离我而去
我的生命就如此暗淡
我已经无力再承受一切悲伤
自古以来
大家都说时间可以冲淡一切
这是真的吗？
为何我还是放不下？
那一晚
我又因此而失眠了
原以为把自己弄得疲倦些
好让一躺在床就可以去拜访周小姐
却弄巧反拙
空虚不断地进入我的内心
一切都离开该有的轨道
有一门学问叫做放手
时间对了就该放手吗？
还是继续执著着？
这几晚痛苦都追缠着我
真的很想很想很想很想放声痛哭一场
但此时此刻
只能以四字形容
欲哭无泪

my 17th birthday

2010-02-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

9/2/2010
this day was my birthday..
and wanna know what my class did to me?
just right after chemistry teacher went out..
i'm invited to stand in the 八卦阵 according to our jin ko..
being a sporting guy,
i was stripped by our dear jason lee and jin ko..
after that i'm standing in the middle naked..
ah lee wrote a tiger for me on my stomach

tiger roars!!!!lol
thats all..
maybe most of you will think it is childish or insane,
but its the tradition of tiong leng kia..
no doubt i am pure tiong leng kia..lol

kah beng

2010-01-24T11:05:00.001+08:00

this post is for kah beng de.
he is currently available.
and is looking forward to meet you.
contact him by adding him in msn or facebook.
vincent_ewekb@hotmail.com